I was walking along minding my business when out of an orange coloured sky, flash, bang, alacazam wonderful you came by...
Isn't it funny how things hit you, sometimes during, sometimes just after, sometimes months after they happen you suddenly realise what that moment was.
Once you realise of course that moment will live with you for at least the next 10 mins, if not 10 years.
I often look back on things I should have said, things I shouldn't have done and the way I acted but just before the guilt and regret starts gnawing at my conscience (And I find myself heading for a kebab shop) I remember that I'm not that person anymore and therefore, if I'm not that person anymore why do my previous actions bother me so?
That person has turned me into who I am today and therfore again, oddly enough surely I should be embracing my mistakes?
"Experience is the name we give our mistakes"- Oscar Wilde
Extending from this linguistic advice also I believe 9 times out of 10 we shall also look back and laugh at our naiveity as we learn. It's almost like when we were children; if you're running when you're told not to and you trip and scrape your knee you know not to do it again.
Am I wrong?
What about that moment when someone has you at their mercy and you have three insticts? Flight, Fight or succumb to temptation? At that point you need to choose between what is right and what is easy. There's only so far you can take a moment before it becomes another moment.
I'm not saying for one moment that I'm like a saint and I have the best set of morals going, but in that split second I was able to see the consequences of both outcomes with the easy option turning into difficult, frustrating and complicated.
It's only when you take time, step back and on a boring bank holiday afternoon reflect properly on those moments in your life where 'coulda, shoulda, woulda' comes into play.
Just remember, don't beat yourself up about it it's happened, it's dealt with, leave it alone and move on.
Oooh I feel all hypocritical now..
Overthinking. I will be the first to admit that I will read too much into a moment/situation quite easily. The simpliest thing can trigger an entire thought process and before you know it you're doubting your own initial thoughs as the breed 'super thoughts'and your mind is going a mile a minute... and then you realise actually that was entirely innocent and nothing was implied. You idiot.
These things are set to try us and we must embrace every moment we have with the people close to us in the capacity they are now before it's too late.
Until this afternoon, I believed that I carried around a lot of guilt for my actions in the past.
Isn't it funny how voices from your past can give you a kick up the arse?
I've just got to make sure his voice his kept low-key or else I'll turn weird again! :P